What in the world am I even doing???

Brenna- Hey ya'll. So I haven't written in a while. Nothing much has happened. Oh...at work last week everyone brought in pictures of themselves at the age of one and we had to guess who was who. It was pretty fun. It was funny to see what everybody looked like. Lets see what else...oh so Shane and I had some company this weekend. We had his parents come and stay in our lil' one bedroom one bath duplex. They got here on Friday and left this morning. We had a pretty good time. We went to old st. charles and took a bunch of pictures. There on my FB if you wanna see them.

So have you ever just thought about what you are good at. I know that sounds stupid but just read me while I ramble. So I'm a graphic designer right. (if you are reading this and saying oh thats what she does...we have a lot of catching up to do) I feel like God gave me this talent for a reason. Lets face it...some of ya'll I've lived with...so ya'll know that cooking is not my strength...cleaning isn't even close....having that patients with children and being comfortable around them...well...I'm getting better. But design...I feel like i'm good at that you know. When shane's parents were in town this weekend there were times that we cooked (glenda and I). And she was like, "oh you can just make this..." and poof she would make something from scratch. I'm like..."doesn't that come in a box with directions." I felt kinda stupid....just...not knowing how to be like that. I don't have a drive to make food from scratch. I'm tired when I get home...I just wanna make something fast and simple. What was I getting at...oh...right....See I spend all of my energy designing...and when I get home...i'm tired but when I look at what i've done all day... I feel like I haven't designed anything. Well...anything good...anything that will make a difference. I would like to be useful. I would like for my designs to mean something to somebody. Thats probably why I love designing wedding invitations. I get a chance to design something for a couple getting ready to start their lives together. I get to hear brides say, "thats just what I imagined it would be!" THAT IS A GREAT FEELING! I also love designing for the church. I didn't get to do it as much as I wanted to in Auburn...but when I did I loved it. Its just cool to be able to take God's word and message and design it in a way to make it stand out from anything else it is around. (thats hard to do seeing how we are surrounded with so much visual overload) I'm hoping....well...really...I'm looking forward to God using me in St. Louis...at Lighthouse. Okay...enough of my ramblings...i'm going to bed. I'll try to be in a more uplifting mood in my next blog. G'night ya'll!