My life for the past 3 months has been building up to this day... this moment. The moment when I am given my fait as to if I will be cashing a pay check.. or pulling unemployment. Thats right... D-DAY. This day has been a long time coming. Many frustrated nights... times when you feel like you are going to cry, throw up and poop all at the same time. Going from feeling amazing to wondering if anyone will hire you in a fraction of a second.
Yeah... these past 3 months have been anything but peachy. But today... today is a new day. Today I have a home in the AD world... and that home is somewhere fun. I know right? I'll keep all of you posted on when I start my new team (probably next week) and I'll let you know what I'll be doing.
We love and miss ya'll and I can't wait to ya'll!!!
Friday, September 18, 2009
Tuesday, September 15, 2009
258 days and counting
September 15, 2009. Two hundred and fifty-eight days into the year... and what a year it has been.
1. Our beautiful baby girl is over 9 months old... and has more personality than I can shake a stick at. At 9 months she is only a whopping 16.2 pounds (in the 10th percentile for her age), she has said ba ba (for her bottle), da da (for shane). She can stand up on her own (just not for very long). She has the funniest little crawl... looks like a monkey which is very appropriate for her. She has done crazy things like choreographed her own dance routine (and let us know when we needed to clap) and the thing that tops the cake... our daughter... has done a pull up... on a table. NO LIE. She never stops amazing us.
2. Found out my mom has bone marrow cancer (early stages). Talk about a kick to the crotch. God is amazing though... her doctor caught it in time so it hasn't done anything to her organs which is great! But she does have to start chemo in Oct. Please be praying for her and my family through this. My mom is a trooper and is very strong... and she has been amazing so far.
3. The account that I was on at work... well... gave us the boot... so now my job hangs in the balance. God has been amazing through this though. Some days are harder than others. When no one is calling you for an interview... you wonder are you good enough. But God has really given me a piece about it. Really... its a win win for me. 1. I loose my job (sucky) but I get to stay at home with savannah and we can save money on gas and babysitting. or 2. I keep my job and get to work on another account.
4. We've been working on the house. That has been exciting... and a pain in the butt at the same time. But once it is all said and done... we will have a finished basement that will add to our living space and we will finally have an office. Can I just tell you how excited I am about having an office. I will now have a place for my scrapbooking and my knitting. Yes... I scrapbook... and yes I knit... and NO I'm not 80... I don't think. ha!
So that is my life up to this point in time. I have had a lot of amazing things happen... and a lot of things that I could have done without. I know that Satan tries to use some of these things against me... tries to make me angry at God. God knows my heart. He knows when I hurt... and he knows if I want to blame him before it even comes out of my mouth. But God still loves me through it. And in the bad times... I remember the Lord (Nehemiah 4:14). I remember what God has done for me in the past... the valleys he has brought me out of. I remember him in those times... and I know that he is with me even now.
Love and miss ya'll!!!!
1. Our beautiful baby girl is over 9 months old... and has more personality than I can shake a stick at. At 9 months she is only a whopping 16.2 pounds (in the 10th percentile for her age), she has said ba ba (for her bottle), da da (for shane). She can stand up on her own (just not for very long). She has the funniest little crawl... looks like a monkey which is very appropriate for her. She has done crazy things like choreographed her own dance routine (and let us know when we needed to clap) and the thing that tops the cake... our daughter... has done a pull up... on a table. NO LIE. She never stops amazing us.
2. Found out my mom has bone marrow cancer (early stages). Talk about a kick to the crotch. God is amazing though... her doctor caught it in time so it hasn't done anything to her organs which is great! But she does have to start chemo in Oct. Please be praying for her and my family through this. My mom is a trooper and is very strong... and she has been amazing so far.
3. The account that I was on at work... well... gave us the boot... so now my job hangs in the balance. God has been amazing through this though. Some days are harder than others. When no one is calling you for an interview... you wonder are you good enough. But God has really given me a piece about it. Really... its a win win for me. 1. I loose my job (sucky) but I get to stay at home with savannah and we can save money on gas and babysitting. or 2. I keep my job and get to work on another account.
4. We've been working on the house. That has been exciting... and a pain in the butt at the same time. But once it is all said and done... we will have a finished basement that will add to our living space and we will finally have an office. Can I just tell you how excited I am about having an office. I will now have a place for my scrapbooking and my knitting. Yes... I scrapbook... and yes I knit... and NO I'm not 80... I don't think. ha!
So that is my life up to this point in time. I have had a lot of amazing things happen... and a lot of things that I could have done without. I know that Satan tries to use some of these things against me... tries to make me angry at God. God knows my heart. He knows when I hurt... and he knows if I want to blame him before it even comes out of my mouth. But God still loves me through it. And in the bad times... I remember the Lord (Nehemiah 4:14). I remember what God has done for me in the past... the valleys he has brought me out of. I remember him in those times... and I know that he is with me even now.
Love and miss ya'll!!!!
Monday, March 23, 2009
4 months in and loving it!
Motherhood....there is nothing that can help prepare you for it. You freak out about being a mom... wondering why in the world they have tests and licenses for everything in life, but not one for parenthood. Then this beautiful gift from God comes... bringing with her the tiniest hands... that somehow are able to hold not only your heart, but everyone's heart that she meets. And along with her, God inserts the mom gene and erases any memory you had of sleeping through the night.
I've never been more tired in my life than I am now... but every minute she keeps me up... is just more time I have with her. Waking me up at two o'clock in the morning screaming cause she is wasting away and stumbling into her dark room trying to change her before I feed her. Tears rolling down her little face looking at me wondering why in the world I haven't fed her yet. But then to sit there...rocking her...feeding her... just looking at this beautiful baby that Shane and I have made (with God's help of course). Looking at her little features... seeing Shane's mouth, ears and feet... wondering where my features are. :)
My beautiful 6 pounds 13oz baby Savannah... is now 4 months and over 12 pounds. My sweet baby that would only smile because of a dream or gas... now smiles and laughs all the time (she thinks her daddy is the funniest person ever). It has been so much fun watching her find her hands and holding them together like she is getting ready to pray. Her finding her feet and wondering why her toes aren't as long as her fingers (they are much harder to suck on). Watching as my poor baby's hair falls out... first where she looks like an old man... then falling out to where it looks like the parting of the red sea on my child's head.
But it is hard. It is hard trying to have energy to do anything besides eat and sleep. It is hard to feel attractive when you are pumping and feel like a diary cow. It is hard to put Shane before Savannah. Like the song my granny Lucy use to sing to me... The Devil is a sly ol' fox. But God is good... he gets you through all the awkward parts.
I love being a mom. I look forward to all of her milestones. When she says momma... I love you... Gosh... that is going to be amazing. Thanks for reading! We love and miss ya'll!!!!
I've never been more tired in my life than I am now... but every minute she keeps me up... is just more time I have with her. Waking me up at two o'clock in the morning screaming cause she is wasting away and stumbling into her dark room trying to change her before I feed her. Tears rolling down her little face looking at me wondering why in the world I haven't fed her yet. But then to sit there...rocking her...feeding her... just looking at this beautiful baby that Shane and I have made (with God's help of course). Looking at her little features... seeing Shane's mouth, ears and feet... wondering where my features are. :)
My beautiful 6 pounds 13oz baby Savannah... is now 4 months and over 12 pounds. My sweet baby that would only smile because of a dream or gas... now smiles and laughs all the time (she thinks her daddy is the funniest person ever). It has been so much fun watching her find her hands and holding them together like she is getting ready to pray. Her finding her feet and wondering why her toes aren't as long as her fingers (they are much harder to suck on). Watching as my poor baby's hair falls out... first where she looks like an old man... then falling out to where it looks like the parting of the red sea on my child's head.
But it is hard. It is hard trying to have energy to do anything besides eat and sleep. It is hard to feel attractive when you are pumping and feel like a diary cow. It is hard to put Shane before Savannah. Like the song my granny Lucy use to sing to me... The Devil is a sly ol' fox. But God is good... he gets you through all the awkward parts.
I love being a mom. I look forward to all of her milestones. When she says momma... I love you... Gosh... that is going to be amazing. Thanks for reading! We love and miss ya'll!!!!
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